Feeling Defeated

Not a great morning, don't have anything to say other than I'm really pissed with myself. Went out, did 1/2 the podcast, jogged 3 times, fast walked once....My lungs were ready to explode, heart was racing, which made anxiety come to visit and a panic attack started....So I did what I do best and gave up.....I'm just too fat for this shit....That is all!